I guess I’ll never understand

Wow! Does time go by or what? Quite a fair bit as happened since my last blog, but it all seems like a blur now. It feels like weeks have gone past, but it has only been just over a week. I’m not even sure If I should be writing this because it’s on the internet, and everyone is able to access it etc, but I sort of wanted to bring the topic up because it was something that seriously bothered me and It was in the back of my mind for a while, and now I sort of just don’t care that much about it anymore

Last week, I accidentally found out that a few of my friends smoked. I was really shocked. I don’t know why, I guess I have just been blind as a bat and living in my own bubble. I mean, I bet more than half my grade smokes and drinks, and possibly even take illegal drugs, but I’ve been so oblivious to what other people do in my grade. Maybe I just don’t have a habit of poking my nose around other people’s business. Well, that may be a little hypocritical of me to say to be frank.

SO, my friends have been doing it for about half a year (my friend and I did an approximate calculation ) One of them apparently does it because it’s ‘cool’, another to loose weight, and another is apparently addicted to it. To me, smoking is an absurd idea. I have grown up with watching those disgusting ads about what smoking does to your body and health. Of course just because I personally dislike smoking doesn’t mean I have anything against you. I just find it difficult to understand why people would smoke when they know what it does to you. Is it worth destroying your health to impress a bunch of strangers? Is it really worth fitting in? I guess I’ll never understand.

After many days of it being in the back of my mind, I have come to the conclusion that it’s none of my business. They can do what they want, so long as they don’t pressure me to do it, or smoke in front of me, because quite frankly I’m against passive smoking. Particularly near children, because I know I really hated it when I was kid, and I still do. Call me childish, but I hold my breathe whenever I walk past someone who smokes. I’m not sure what to think of this anymore.

It also led me thinking about how I’d probably never enjoy clubbing or getting wasted. Maybe I’m just a ‘nerd’ or ‘geek’, but if I were to go to a club, It’d be to laugh at all women trying to impress others or even themselves, or men trying to pick up women. Two of my friends and I have come to the conclusion that we’d rather spend the night in the library

I’ve got around a year and half of high school left, and I often wonder whether I will ever miss it. I already know that I miss my earlier years of high school being carefree and fun. Gosh I feel so old already! And there has been that thought of who I’d maybe still be friends with after high school and those who I probably won’t. It kind of scares me, because I want to still be friends with some of them, (that makes me sound mean doesn’t it? ) but I sort of think that it’d be difficult, especially if we went to different universities and what not. Does anyone feel the same/have you felt similar to that before?
I think that’s enough of what’s-inside-Tiffany’s-head, take care, and I’ll talk to you all soon